tangisan malam tahun baru...

salam...
malam ini,di hujani air mata lagi,namun sbbnya bkn spt selalu(yg x bsbb tu),tp disebabkan kehilangan ahli keluarga yg amat rapat dan dekat di hati...patut la baru ni asyik teringat2 je kat arwah...al-fatihah utk tok njang ku, haji saad (i'll check the name again,biasala selalu x ingat nama generasi2 yg jauh)
sedih,terkilan,semua rasa tu ada...alhamdulillah lps solat,bc yasin n tahlil,dah turun sikit rs tu...sbnrnya masa mesej2 dgn my sis td,ada akak sebut yg arwah accident sbnrnya ptg td,tp cuma patah kaki...gara2 dilanggar oleh motor sorang bdk ni,dah la xmintak maap terlanggar org tua,siap mnyalahkan pulak orang tua yg sememangnya tgh berjalan kaki...alahai,apa nak jadi dgn manusia akhir zaman ni??...blum bertanya apa cause of death,mungkin ada trauma kat internal organ,wallahualam...sbb masa my sis mesej td,cuma bgtau yg arwah patah kaki sbb accident tu,n masa ayah pegi tgk kat hospital pun,still ok...tp,mungkin ini yg dinamakan 'dah ajal'...manusia xmampu berbuat apa2,hanya Allah yg menentukan hidup dan mati makhlukNya...semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat...
ramai sudah generasi2 atas yg sudah pergi menghadap Ilahi...masa dah duduk bertenang ni(td sgt emo,mata pun dah merah2),terpikir yg hidup jauh dr famili,bila berpisah,xpasti akan bertemu lg atau tidak...masa bljr kat mrsm dulu(1st time duk jauh dgn famili),selalu bila ada kematian dalam famili,mesti xda orang maklumkan,especially kalau arwah rapat...sampai ada sekali tu,mati2 saya ingatkan arwah masih hidup(time tu arwah tok wa,dah meninggal beberapa bulan),xtahu pokok pangkal...tp td bila dah meningkat dewasa ni,mungkin mak ayah tau kita dah boleh handle,pikir baik buruk...
arwah tok njang selalu datang jenguk bila balik cuti summer...everytime dia lalu(dia sgt suka berjalan2,selalunya time ptg la,lps balik dr solat kat masjid,minum kopi kat kedai kopi),nak balik rumah tu,dia akan singgah rumah skjp sblm balik ke rumah dia...kesian tgk dia,isteri dah meninggal,anak2 tggl jauh,lalu tggl lah dia seorang diri(ada sorang anak yg duduk dgn dia),tp umpamanya macam hidup seorang diri,ditemani kucing2 di rumah...ingat lagi waktu bersembang dgn arwah masa cuti summer yg lps,''nanti dah besar,jaga mak ayah elok2''[lebih kurang begini la ayatnya,tp mksdnya begitu la)...terserlah kesedihan kat air muka dia...insyaAllah an akan ingat pesan2 tok njang,utk studi betui2,dan semua2nya...walaupun dia dah xkeja,still kalau saya balik,mesti dia akan beri duit sikit2(banyak jugak sbnrnya),katanya duit tu but belajar...serba salah nak terima duit dr dia,takut duit tu guna utk bnda lain pulak,huhu...kalau x slh,still ada lg duit tu dlm beg(coz dpt sblm nak balik sini)...n tahun ni jugak,arwah ckp b4 nak balik,call la dia,bgtau,nanti dia dtg nak hantar sblm balik sini...xsangka rupa2nya itu lah kali terakhir jumpak dgn dia...

Setiap yang bernyawa akan merasakan mati.kemudian hanya kepada Kami kamu dikembalikan. [surah al-ankabut : 57]

mega kuzmin

salam...
hari ni hari yg memenatkan...10 hours of window shopping(not exactly a window shopping,it was juz SUPPOSED to be window shopping...huhu)...mula2nya xnak bawak banyak cash,but end up withdraw duit jugak...sangat rambang mata,memandangkan skrg tgh winter sale,& mega kuzmin(we'd like 2 call it mega tepi) sgt la besar...rsnya mega ni paling besar antara 3 mega yg ada...bg yg xpnh smpai situ,mega ni consist of 2 bgnn yg letaknya bertentangan jalan...ada 1 jejantas yg connect both sides...sgt bnyk kedai,bole dikatakan most brands ada la kat situ,just name it,nak apa,MNG,promod,stradivarius,pull n bear,newyorker,zara...bkn setakat yg fesyen,bg yg nak leisure,ada ice rinks gak...i dun plan to buy anything pun sbnrnya,tp at last,i'm the 1 with the most purchase,hiihii...

hmm,lets see wat i bought today...

1. lots of food(isi perut dulu masa 1st sampai,lapar sgt tu)
2. went 2 stokmann,beli alat2 memasak...
3. bought a jacket(ssh giler nak pilih,sbb bnyk yg bkenan,n bnyk diskaun) at bershka...i never had this kind of jacket b4,sooo hepi
4. then in pull n bear, i bought a shoulder bag...cantik la kalau mata ni yg pndg,tp org lain pndg blum tentu cantik...i noe my taste is a bit different from my frens n my siblings...
5. bought a present for a fren
6. went to ashan,bought a pink-bed-sheet,drinks.etc

i dun wan 2 think how much i spent 2day...horror gile tgk duit abes cpt sgt...but i havent done shopping for d whole sem(is it?haha,i think so),sdpkan ati la ni,so xpe la kan,juz 2 spoil myself a little bit...

i wanna bake,huhu,tp dah xsengaja termatikan oven acap...sowi acap,nanti try repair,ok....:-p

new look..again...

so, i decided to giv a new look to my blog...more fresh than before...:-p

enjoying my 1st day of h0Lidaysssssss!!!weeeheeee....

salam...

hari ni, 1 muharam 1430H...hari ni jugak officially dah stat cuti...tp lmbt lg nk pegi jln2...smntara tggu 13 jan,kena la round2 moscow dl...rsnya dah 5thn duduk moscow ni,asyik2 ulang pegi tmpt sama je..kalau bukan pegi kremlin,pegi mega,xpun pegi mana2 shopping complex yg rs bes...xpnh lagi jejak kaki ke tmpt2 popular(cewah,popular la sgt),spt BDXH(sebutnye vedenha),park pobedi mahupun pegi ke balshoi teatre ataupun tmpt ski(nak pegi mluncur,haha,nak pegi amek gmbr n experience je sbnrnya)...
tp hari ni,after class(lps dah balik rehat2 kjp),kitorang kuar p try benda baru...cuba teka apa?(haha,mmg suka main teka2 ni,mlgnya xdak org yg suka meneka...~sigh~)...

syok sgt hari ni...1st time rs jln atas tasik...hihi,btui,xsilap taip,mmg tasik btui...

inilah tasik yg dimaksudkan...dah beku...syok2

lebih detail...tasik yg dah membeku...:-p mula2 takut gak kalau2 dia crack,dah la xreti berenang,sejuk mesti thp beku max nye,tp alhamdulillah,mmg dah beku btui rupanya tasik tu...suhu hari ni xbrapa sejuk bndg hari yg sblmnya,lebih kurg -4 C...tp cuaca agak suram hari ni...:-( tp,xkesah yg penting kitorg punya 'cuaca' ceria2 aja...biasa la,org baru dpt cuti...

plan awal adalah nak buat snowman(translate ke russian: snegoviih chelovek,hhaha,ntah le btui ke x),tp oleh sbb semua org excited 1st time jln atas air beku,masing2 ada bnyk idea nak bnykkan gmbr,so,kitorang xberganjak dr tasik tu dr awal sampai balik(xcukup snow atas tasik utk buat snowman)...

inilah muka2 yg ada...: acap,raihan,dayah,paez n eda....fotographer : fatin...

dalam sronok2 asyik ambil gambar tu,ternampak sorang budak ni...ala,comey sgt...so,kitorang paksa la dia ambik gmbr dgn kitorang...comey2,rs mcm nak cubit2 je pipi budak tu,nasib baik mak dia kat tepi,hihi...

inilah budak nye,comey kan?haha,tp dia mcm terpesona tgk kitorang,sbb tu xnak tgk kamera...kakak2 yg pelik agaknya dia kata :-p

hihi,main snow fight yg bes tu...tp oleh sbb pakai glove kain,ssh nak kepal2 ais tu bg mampat..xsyok sgt baling sbb xckup mampat...hihi,bila sdiri kena 'mandi' dgn snow,baru rs sronok x sronok tu...:-p ngeee,syok jugak sbnrnya...maubes btui dpt snow shower ni,hihi...xcaya try la...

lps dah enjoy2 kat park,hampir ke pukul 4(lebih kurang 1 1/2 jam duduk atas tasik beku tu,weee...) dah sejuk gile,tgn pun rs mcm dah nak frost bite,huhu(nauzubillah), n dah nak masuk maghrib,kitorang pun beransur pulang...ditambah pulak ada sorang mamat russia ni(mabuk agaknya,jln macam org ada ataxia) dtg mntak duit dr kitorang,kitorang pun lg cpt2 la blah...

balik rumah tu,lps dah sembahyang n semua,kemas2 barang utk bg pada nas utk bawak balik msia...nanti minta ayah pegi ambil dr rumah nas...sikit hadiah utk anak buah tersayang...(maksu lupa nak ambil gmbr ltk sini),baju2 kurung yg dah jarang di pakai, n bear2(tmasuk la yg bkn bear) yg rsnya boleh bg adam n sarah je main...terima kasih nas...
akan ku balas jasamu...

inilah mereka yg penah jadi peneman tidur...p/s:most of them are precious gifts from my frens...thanx,but they r going home,hihi...

so,inilah antara koleksi2 teddies yg di collect selama di moscow ni...y i say antara?sbb ada lg yg kecik2 yg xsempt nak pungut n ltk atas katil utk ambil gmbr,n ada yg dkt org lain(they are still mine though...)

ini golongan2 yg terpilih utk balik mesia...hippo(namanya stalin),giraffe(no name),tiger(anon jugak) n bola ikea(dun need a name for a ball,mayb i shud name it leper,hihi<>

these...stay with me...cipin is d youngest,but the largest,n chubbiest,etc,hihi...bear yg pakai sweater(durar yg bg,i used to call it 'penyek',sbb dah lenyek dikerjakan,hihi) n 1 lg yg kaler kuningg tu(xdak nama jugak),but i like to call it precious,stands for precious memory...


''i'm going home...i'm going home it;s true...''lalala...~giraffe ni nyanyi2,haha...ok la,2 those going back to msia,hav a safe journey...:-p kirimkan salamku pada tanah air kesayangan...serta orang2 tercintaku...

Home - Daughtry

that's all for today...esok insyaAllah nak berkunjung ke Mega Kuzminskii pulak...:-)

wish all my frens gud luck for ur exam 2moro...

salam maal hijrah...

assalammualaikum...

pejam celik,pejam celik,dah setahun rupanya...lagi 4 hari,dtg lah tahun baru 2009Masihi...dalam xsedar, rupa2nya dalam 2-3 hari lagi jugak kita bakal menginjak ke 1430H...1 muharram,awal muharram,maal hijrah,apa saja nama yg kita gunakan...mulanya tahun hijrah ni disebabkan penghijrahan Nabi Muhammad s.a.w dan sahabat2 ke Madinah dr Mekah pada tahun 622Masihi...jangan tanya kenapa 1430+622 tak sama dgn 2009...ini disebabkan peredaran bulan mengelilingi bumi lebih pendek dr pergerakan bumi mengelilingi matahari...(saja letak sains sikit kat sini)...


kalau tahun baru selalunya org buat azam, tahun baru hijrah ni selalunya dikaitkan dgn penghijrahan...selalunya ditekankan berhijrah dr yg buruk kepada yg baik...yg baik kepada yg lebih baik...tp selalunya setiap tahun pun berazam,tp azam (merujuk kepada azam sendiri) jarang sekali kesampaian...xkisah la azam apa pun,nak jadik lebih baik,nak kuruskan badan,nak beli itu,nak beli ini...:-p hanya hangat2 tahi ayam di awal tahun,lps tu jadi suam-suam kuku je pun azam tu...rasanya azam tahun ni adalah meneruskan azam tahun lepas...tak lebih dari itu,sbb yg dulu pun masih belum tercapai...

dari sejak kecil lagi,setiap kali tiba tahun baru(yg dimaksudkan adalah awal muharram),arwah mak tok sentiasa ingatkan untuk baca doa awal dan akhir tahun...masa tu,kita ikut saja lah,dah benda baik,xkan lah nak bantah pulak...skrg pun masih amalkan jugak(kekadang hampir terlupa yang sebenarnya dah nak masuk tahun baru hijrah,gara2 sibuk dgn hal duniawi,astaghfirullah)...namun skrg kan bnyk org bicarakan soal bidaah...so,kalau ada yg bminat,boleh la baca artikel ni, sggh menarik bg pndpt sy...kat sini sy ltk kesimpulannya sajalah :

Kesimpulan: Doa di awal dan akhir tahun merupakan sesuatu perkara yang baik dan harus dilakukan oleh setiap lapisan masyarakat, namun ia bukanlah perkara yang wajib. Anda hendak berdoa, berdoalah di setiap waktu dan ketika. Setiap waktu dan ketika itu termasuk juga padanya doa di awal dan akhir tahun. Berdoalah semoga dosa kita di tahun yg lalu diampunkan dan amalan kita diterima. Jua berdoalah moga di tahun baru ini kita dibantu melawan syaitan, nafsu yang menyeru kejahatan serta dibantu melakukan amal ibadat sebanyak mungkin.

Doa

Awal Tahun & Doa Akhir Tahun

Barangsiapa yang membaca doa awal tahun ini, insya Allah dirinya akan terpelihara daripada gangguan dan godaan syaitan di sepanjang tahun tersebut. Doa Awal Tahun: Maksudnya: Allah SWT berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad SAW, ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabat baginda dan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka. Wahai Tuhan, Engkaulah yang kekal abadi, yang qadim. yang awal dan ke atas kelebihanMu yang besar dan kemurahanMu yang melimpah dan ini adalah tahun baru yang telah muncul di hadapan kami. Kami memohon pemeliharaan dariMu di sepanjang tahun ini dari syaitan dan pembantu-pembantunya dan tentera-tenteranya dan juga pertolongan terhadap diri yang diperintahkan melakukan kejahatan dan usaha yang mendekatkanku kepadaMu Wahai Tuhan Yang Maha Agung dan Maha Mulia. Wahai Tuhan Yang Maha pengasih dari mereka yang mengasihi dan Allah berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad. Nabi yang ummi dan ke atas ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabatnya dan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka. Barangsiapa yang membaca doa akhir tahun ini, maka syaitan akan berkata: "Hampalah kami di sepanjang tahun ini". Doa Akhir Tahun: Maksudnya: Allah SWT berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad SAW, ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabat baginda dan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka. Wahai Tuhan, apa yang telah aku lakukan dalam tahun ini daripada perkara-perkara yang Engkau tegah daripada aku melakukannya dan aku belum bertaubat daripadanya. Sedangkan Engkau tidak redha dan tidak melupakannya. Dan aku telah melakukannya di dalam keadaan di mana Engkau berupaya untuk menghukumku, tetapi Engkau mengilhamkanku dengan taubat selepas keberanianku melakukan dosa-dosa itu semuanya. Sesungguhnya aku memohon keampunanMu, maka ampunilah aku. Dan tidaklah aku melakukan yang demikian daripada apa yang Engkau redhainya dan Engkau menjanjikanku dengan pahala atas yang sedemikian itu. Maka aku memohon kepadaMu. Wahai Tuhan! Wahai yang Maha Pemurah! Wahai Yang Maha Agung dan wahai Yang Maha Mulia agar Engkau menerima taubat itu dariku dan janganlah Engkau menghampakan harapanku kepadaMu Wahai Yang Maha Pemurah. Dan Allah berselawat ke atas penghulu kami Muhammad, ke atas ahli keluarga dan sahabat-sahabatnya dan mengurniakan kesejahteraan ke atas mereka.

p/s:di copy paste dr http://www.darulnuman.com/mhikmah/muharam.html

walau apa pun,mesti setiap dr kita hendakkan buku amalan tahun ni ditutup dgn amalan2 yg baik,dan dimulakan dgn amalan2 yg baik jugak,agar kita lebih bsemangat utk buat amalan2 yg baik2 je sepanjang tahun(sbg motivasi)
akhir kalam...selamat menyambut tahun baru 1430H dan 2009M...semoga hidup kita semua diberkati olehNya...semoga hari ini lebih baik dr kelmarin,dan esok lebih baik dr hari ini...


Dapatkan ecard NasyidFM Disini

nak balik mesia gak!!!

HOME-sick gak...jarang home sick ni,kat maktab xpnh,kat intec pun xpnh,ms 1st year pun xpnh...skrg baru nak berjinak2 dgn HOME-sick...huhu,apekah???



wanna fly back home...

miss sume org kat rumah...esp-ly my little noty "BUAS'' boy, my little baby sarah...

owh,itu mak sy dlm gmbr...rindu mak jugak....

LOVE u all...sronok2 kat rumah jgn lupa an kat sini...:-(

PROMO!!!iklan....(tlg promot je ni)

4th entry for today(MIGHT be the last for today,haha...)

PROMO 1.
ada sapa2 yg mengidam teringin makan pizza?freshly baked n sent right to ur door...haaa.....kalau jwpnnya ya....boleh la pesan dr mohd asyraf(a.k.a acap,cerap, or watso ever korang pggl dia),bole la order dr acap(bilik 608,ataupun msj +79263020342 ataupun ym paksu_a, ataupun bole ckp dgn sy je...tp,kena bgtau awal sikit la utk prepare bhn,nak tggu yis kembang lagi,etc(kena tnya chef)

ini lah contoh pizza brand acap...sapa2 bekenan?

harga nya nanti ltk ye...x tnya chef btui2 lg...cuma org dah mntak tlg promo,so,here it is...:-p


PROMO 2.

this 1 kawan dr volgo mntk tlg promot (yat namanya,housemate dia buat jual)...so,tlg la promot,mmndgkan kos hidup pun dah mngkat naik kat bndr volgograd tu...
so,ini lah dia....bole klik sini utk tgk... brg2 elektronik,mcm i pod, i phone,mostly brg apple...and ada jugak black berry bold...

i pod nano 4800 rub...

black berry bold

hmm,brg2 ni ada kat volgo...tp,insyaAllah kalau ada permintaan,kwn sy tu kata,cuti winter nnti dia turun moscow,dia hantarkan...

pe2 pun,please contact d owner of d blog via email (gizmoses@gmail.com) or YM! (gizmo_pony).

ataupun bole ym kwn sy(a.k.a yat@hidayatil alimi) YM : da_radio

ok,sekian iklan...selamat mmbeli belah...:-p

greece....

my 3rd entry of d day(obses dgn blog sdiri)

balik dr kls td,check mailbox,ada emel yang MYair tukar flight schedule...from bari,italy to athens...dicptkan 2 hari,so mmg xdpt la kitorg nak kejar flight tu,tpaksa la cancel nmpknya...harap2 dpt refund la,huhu...

santorini , greece...magnificent view...

i really wanna go to greece...since i watch 'sisterhood of travelling pants 2', in which several scenes were shot in Santorini,i fell in love with that place...teringin sgt nak pegi pulau yg bntuk bulan sabit tu....

d prob is....

i dunno if u ever heard that there's some kind of riots going on right now in greece...semuanya gara2 ada polis yg tersilap tembak sorang bdk umur 15thn(i dunno the exact cause),n all d university students pun xpuas hati la,n buat rusuhan...n it's not only riots yg aman2 tu,tp siap ada letupan2 bom lg...it doesnt worry me that much sbnrnya,coz we're going in like 1 month from now,it should have resolved by then, but who knows right?anything can happen....(i noe it may sound like selfish,huhu) tp tu la,every time i call my ayah n mak,diorg akan tnya psl my trip to greece ni,hmm,xtau nak jwb mcm mn...i noe they worry about my safety...


apa2 pun,i juz hope that d condition there will get better...not only so that i can go there,but also for d world peace...(ecece,ala2 miss world pulak)...:-p

2nd entry of d day...wee...:-p

dah lama nak tulis2 nama atas snow...tercapai jugak hari ni,lps balik dr zachot psm...alhamdulillah zacht td ok je...time kaseh doa mak...:-)



ini yg paling buruk in d bunch,haha,i noe my handwriting is d worst kalau compare dgn my grupmates nye...layan,asalkan bole baca...


ini tiha nye handwriting...xterpikir pulak td nak tulis PAUXAH hihi...xpe2,there's alwiz next time,insyaAllah...


ala...comey la dia...hihi...tulisan yg penuh berseni...


this is me,with tulisan yg skema...haha...seeewwwjjjuuuukkkk.....(note d flowery gloves,haha,my feveret,jenis yg macam org guna kat dapur xdak jarik tu,ala,macam yg baby nye tu)



ini nama dia tiha...


ini pulak eda...

so,waktu jln2 balik sekali dgn tiha,fatin n eda td,kitorg main2 la dgn salji...sejuk giler hari ni, -6 C, dah la pakai baju nipis je td,stokin pun 1 lapis je,mnyesal2...muka dah mcm kena cucuk2 dgn ais,huhu,sejuk2...
berbekalkan kamera handser 2 megapix ni,kitorg pun enjoy ourselves...bes nye kalau ada DSLR...ada sapa2 nak bg pnjm?hihi...

cikgu mengajar cikgu???

salam...

ini entry yg dijanjikan utk seorang kawan yg bnyk berjasa kpd saya...:-p(btui ke ni?)

ok,rasanya semua dah sedia maklum,baru2 ni(mungkin sblm2 ni pun ada),friendster bnyk sgt ada virus2 yg mnhantar komen2 yg seksi2 n pelik2...xtau la kalau sy ada jadik mngsa(kalau ada tu,phm2 je la ye,spam semata2 tu,n kalau ada jugak,mntk maap bnyk2 ye kwn2...)
so,apa nak buat dgn virus ni?huhu...1st of all,rs sy la,ada baiknya kita buat yg bole mntk approval sblm display...so,xdak la secara tiba2 je bila kita bukak profile sendiri(atau org lain),jantung berdegup kencang,mngucap je bnyk2...:-p

so,ini la yg saya ajar kwan sy ni cara2 nak tukar setting,hihi...aik,cikgu mngajar cikgu ni...

gambar hiasan semata2...tekan situ untuk tukar...

rasanya skrg dah malas nak gunakan fs...sbb2nya:

• frenster bnyk virus2 yg mnyakitkan hati
• frenster lambat update
• frenster lambat upload gmbr,+ xleh ltk gmbr saiz bsr
• ramai yg dah xguna frenster
• xboleh tag gmbr mcm dlm facebook
  
• etc

tp walaupun bnyk klmhn,still guna jugak fs,sbbnya xdak keja lain nak buat bila online..

akhir kalam,join la facebook...:-p

nasi lemak edisi kukus...

malam ni,teringin lg nak mkn nasi lemak...oleh sbb dah lama teringat2 nak try buat nasi lemak kukus,so arini try la jugak...teringat pulak,dulu ada bawak beras pulut,niat hati mula2 tu nak buat pulut seri muka dgn beras tu,tp skrg dah xrs nak buat pulak(bnyk sgt telur n beras yg nak kena buat,cpt muak pulak tu)balik mesia nanti tggu mak buat je la,sdp!!!

ni la hasilnya...nasi lemak kukus, dgn sambal ayam campur sotong(itu je bahan yg ada dlm peti,sikit ayam,sikit sotong,walaupun tau x elok campur darat dgn laut,tp dah tpaksa,huhu)
kaler sambal x nmpk mcm sambal,more like kuah kari je,huhu,rs pun x mcm sambal...tp layan je la...
ada org ckp,nasi ni rs mcm lemang,huhu,xpe la,i take it as a compliment...:-p

semoga panjang umur,murah rezeki...

hepi besday 2u,hepi besday,hepi besday(ikut suka korg la nak nyanyi mcm mn,hiihii)

selamat hari lahir acap(20 dis),xlupa jugak jimi n krul yg share tarikh lahir, dan kpd kwn tersayang,che husna kita(21 dis)... semoga korang mndpt kebahgiaan di dunia n akhirat...
amin

ini cup cake besday husna, dihias khas oleh kak aina kita...hihi,comey,kan

ini pulak kek besday adik acap kita...yer,mmg buruk,sbb sy yg decorate...huhu,xpndai la bab2 presentation ni...
p/s: acap lps ni turn hg lak msk utk aku...

seronok2 selebret besday ni,jgn lupa pnjatkan syukur kpd Allah,sbb kita masih hidup, n dipenuhi dgn nikmat2 drNya...lpgun,semakin mngkat tua ni,semakin dkt kita dgn kematian...malaikat dtg jenguk kita 70 kali sehari,puratanya lebih kurang 3x dlm sejam...so,phm2 sdri la...xnak la time malaikat dtg tu nanti dicatitkan yg buruk2,n mana la tahu dia dtg utk mnjemput kita,wallahualam...(sekadar peringtan utk diri ini yg selalu lupa)

btw,still,hepi besday kawan2 ku...

broken-heart-robot

http://www.brokenheartrobot.com

suka nye sangat dgn robot nih...cumillll....ahaks

:-p

p/s:xdak kena mngena hati robot ni dgn hati sy...cuma dia comel je...

yippee...kek cokelat...

salam...

ngantuknya,sepatutnya skrg dah tido,tp sbb td buat kek tgh2 mlm,so terpaksa la tggu kek tu masak...sepatutnya ikut resepi,katanya cuma 45min,tp agaknya sbb org yg ltk resepi tu guna oven berkuasa tnggi+kipas yg power,so cpt la kek dia msk...kita yg guna oven pinjm je(xle kutuk oven tu,haha,nanti owner dia a.k.a acap,xbg pnjm dah),so end up sampai 2jam baru masak sepenuhnya...:-p alhamdulillah,walaupun mula2 ingatkan dah xjadik,sbb dia naik xsekata,tp at last hasilnya bole la thn...kek ni dibuat in collaboration with owner of d oven(acap ler,dia yg paksa buat kek ni)...tp x buat topping,coz xde bhn,n xde masa yg bnyk...kalau ada topping,mesti mngancam,hihi...

x sempat nak amek gmbr,dah dipotong dan di ngap oleh mulut2 yg xsabar(mulut saya lah tu,hihi...)

oleh sbb sume org dh tido,xsmpt nak jamu sesapa,except maryam yg blum tido...so,i decided to bring the cake to class 2moro...alang2 mnunggu tu,bole la ngap2 kat kls tu...:-p


ini lah rupa kek yg dah di pack ke dlm bekas utk bawak ke kls esok...



kita tutup pulak bekas tu,xlarat nak tggu dia sejuk dah...ngantuk sudaa...


kena bawak bekal air masak ke kls,nanti jenuh nak mncarik air lps mkn bnda2 manis ni...tekak sy xthn sgt bnda2 manis ni,mesti kena ada air utk neutralize balik rs...huhu

time 2sleep,esok kang xbgn nya pulak...

lps ni nak try buat kek sarang semut@gula hangus...teringat mskn mak kat rumah...td patutnya nak buat kek tu,tp xlarat nak tggu sbb kena peram adunan tu for 3-4hours...:-( tgk la bila dah free sikit nanti,insyaAllah try buat...

p/s: bette,juz in case ampa lalu sini,ni la rupa kek yg km buat td tu...sila2 tgk,jamu mata...

salam...

i bet everyone here used to have time when they think "how much i wish i can turn back time'', ''how i wish i never have done that'', etc,etc

yup, me myself, i think a lot of the things that i have done before...no matter it is a good, or a bad thing, i think of it a lot...all the mistakes that i've done, all the fights i went thru(i'm not really a good girl,i noe that...), all the bad things i've done, a lot i cant even enumerate them...n all i can say now is i'm sorry for those things i've done,coz i cannot turn back time to undo them...

back to my childhood, i alwiz quarreled with my elder sisters...i dunno why, but slalu je hati ni terasa dgn kakak2, agaknya fitrah ANAK BONGSU,manja kot,ataupun mmg lumrahnya cpt terasa...hati dulu slalu terpkir,"mayb dia jeles dgn aku", ataupun "diorang ni mmg xsyg aku agaknya"...

but later when i grow up, the fights have lessen down, but still hati ni masih cpt terasa, but i noe my siblings, they love me...mayb sbb masing2 duduk asrama start dr form 4,so we never had like a really good-quality-time together...beza umur dgn yg sulung 6thn,yg 2nd-4thn, n 3rd-1 thn je...tp dgn yg dua atas tu,mmg jarang dpt jumpak, in fact, i dun really remember our time together masa duduk kat rumah tok dulu...masa dah pndh rumah tu, mmg sgt slalu suka bergaduh... 1 time tu, i got really mad, i tried to slap my own sister, nak tarik rambut dia,huhu(yes,i was a bad girl), then end up, i was the 1 gotten her slap...pang!!!haha...lawak la pikir2 balik...kak mah,an mintak maap ye...

not in the pict: myself, kakyan,abng malik, adam n sarah syg...

tp skrg,harap2nya bila semua org dah dewasa,dah pandai berfikir,xgaduh2 lagi dah la...

dun feel like doing anything now...bkn mls,cuma xnak...

alhamdulillah...1 more exam to go...yay!!!

salam...
letih teramat rasanya badan hari ni,tp ntah knapa still rs nak buat bnda2 lain selain dr tidur...(owh,mmg bnyk kerja lain pun,cthnya buat task epidemiology, course work mahupun mmbaca psm), tp x satu pun lg yg dibuat,walaupun dah nak dkt pukul 12tgh mlm,huhu...juz want 2 spoil myself after a loooooonnnng day today...n alhamdulillah,syukur yg x thingga,akhirnya habis jugak psychiatry(dah simpan buku2,plan xnak tgk dah,huhu,yes,i noe teruk,kan?)

so,utk spoil kan diri td,smpt la masak nasi goreng(guna perencah seri aji je), n ayam n cauli flower goreng tepung...suka hati,yippeee,hihi,mkn bnyk,pastu komplen2 berat naik,bagus betui...

n lps dah pergi pulangkan buku2 yg dipinjam(thanx yan n kuji), balik bilik konon nak studi la,belek2 ym, pas2 rs nak menulis pulak blog(walaupun menurut kata nas,btui jugak la kot,yg hnya ada 3 org je yg baca blog ni,hihi,xpe la,at least ada gak yg mmbaca,or at least paling tidak xdak orang baca pun,xpe la,it's juz a medium for me to canalize my problem(like wat vera vladimirovna,d psychiatry doctor said in class), as my emotion capacity is not very big,hihi,ok,i noe dah merepek dah ni)

n 2moro pun still ada lg kls sampai pukul 6 ptg kot,ok,semangat raihan...b strong...

:-p

ok,n sepanjang bljar psychiatry hari tu, i noticed several things...hihi,i thought i used to experience REACTIVE DEPRESSION la dulu....dulu2 xtau pulak...but actually i noticed yg kalau ada apa2 jadik,i will not feel bad or really sad immediately, it will take me some times to feel sad, n in certain cases feel guilty... bagi cth skit la ye...cthnya;dulu masa drjh 6,my beloved grandmother(i called her mak tok) passed away,n when i received the news(i juz returned from school,out of no where my ayah told me that my grandmother juz passed away around 11 am...at honestly at that very moment,i felt,unexplained,it's cruel to say that i felt nothing,but definitely not that sad,owh,probably shocked...n the moment that my tears shattered was when d jenazah arrived,n d feeling that time was uncontrollable(i can feel the tears now,huhu,yes,i'm still emotional when this topic is mentioned),n to be short,i felt sick the day after...i really touched me that i actually caught a fever d week before she left us...n the fact that she looked after me for that 1 week,i still remember it vividly...(owh,n i'm crying again now)...n d fact that i never really had the chance to apologize for the terrible things i had done during my childhood, that i irritated her in some childish behaviour,i'm really sorry,what can i do now,is juz to pray for her...mudah2an rohnya sentiasa dicucuri rahmatNYA...al-fatihah...
n utk sambung cerita, 1 month after that,my grandfather(i called him tok ayah),passed away jugak,i thought may be because he missed his wife so much,+ some other somatic disease,which i'm not aware of...n after these events, everytime i spoke about them(particularly of my grandmother), i will cry,it's juz spontaneous...it has been 10 years since then,n i never ever forget them,bcoz i grew up with them,n there's so much love that i really missed...n dulu2,i frequently dreamt of her,almost every week,i dunno wat do they mean,mayb it's bcoz i really miss them...tp skrg dah jrg,jrg sgt2,adakah maksudnya dah semakin dilupakan?harapnya tidak...

ok,melalut pnjg pulak,tp sbnrnya there's more to tell about this matter...n bole bg cth lagik utk my DIAGNOSIS tu,ala,cuma diagnosis bbudak medik yg tgh eager nak diagnose diri sendiri je...haha

ok2,dah2,nak studi psm...

Daripada al-Nawwas ibn Sam'aan r.a. daripada Nabi SAW baginda bersabda: Kebajikan itu ialah keelokan budi pekerti dan dosa itu ialah apa yang tergetar dalam dirimu dan engkau benci orang lain mengetahuinya. Hadis riwayat al-lmam Muslim.

i dun wanna be that robot...

juz some old pics...to remind me d good old days that i went thru some years ago...
i luv this pic...cari 1 persamaan antara saya dan robot ni?sbnrnya boleh cari bnyk,yg tersurat dan yg tersirat...
this heart was drawn few years back...i luv this heart too...it brings back so many memories...

ya...perasaan ini menikam2...sggh x tipu...

setanggi syurga

Percaya kata janjiMu
Kerna ku yakin apa di genggamMu
Keharuman setanggi syurga
Bukan kilauan sebilah belati

Tersiksa jiwa merindu
Bagai terkurung dibasah tengkujuh
Kewangian aroma bunga
Tak menggugah keteguhan iman

Cinta tak pernah terbunggar dan terlebur
Pada redup renung mata yang menipu
Tuntas ku mendaki
Puncak cinta teragung

Izinkan aku melafazkan kata
Bicara hati yang mudah diterjemah
Betapa aku gerun pada teduh untuk bernaung
(Kerna awan itu rapuh)

Bahagia buat mereka
Yang bertemu cinta yang teragung
Yang membawa ke syurga hakiki dan abadi

Dendam tak marak menyala dan membakar
Oleh putih salju yang berguguran
Kerna dosa itu
Lebih hitam dan kelam

Ku anyam rindu menjadi hamparan
Kerna ku pasti adanya pertemuan
Di sana nanti bukti cinta suci dilafazkan
Tak bertemu pengucapan

Percaya kata janjiMu
Kerna ku yakin apa di genggamMu
Keharuman setanggi syurga
Bukan kilauan sebilah belati

Kata janjiMu...
Seharum setanggi syurga



indahnya lirik lagu ni...xtau dah brapa ribu kali aku dgr lagu ni...stiap kali dgr,ada perasaan yg pelbagai mcm,xpasti pulak knapa...mungkin kerana maksud lirik tu jugak,mungkin jugak kerana teringat segala mcm peristiwa,mungkin jugak kerana belum dpt mendelete memori tu...sesungguhnya rs sgt xpasti,perasaan yg menikam2...u may see me cry listening to this song,but u wont be able to figure out d right reason why i cry(after all,i love to cry,i dunno why,mayb it runs in my blood)...n right now,i'm listening to this very song,only this one song,n once more,over n over again...

congratz...

any1 ere notice d new look on my blog?hiihii...sj je nak tukar background...coz background sblm ni mcm pening kepala bnyk sgt kaler nya...soo yg ni mcm plain sikit(hihi,agak nye la)

n nak ckp congratz kat my fren yg sorg tu...:-p tahniah again...

SeLaMat HaRi RaYa AidiLaDHa...

assalammualaikum wbt
selamat hari raya qurban semua!!!smoga kita semua mndpt manfaat dr peristiwa korban nabi ibrahim a.s dan nabi ismail a.s

i miss my home...semua org pun ada kat rumah skrg ni...hihi,xpe,ini pun berkorban jugak namanya,kan?berkorban utk bljr,menuntut ilmu(so,pergi la studi skrg cik raihan ooii,awak ada exam isnin nanti...)

nak upload gmbr kitorg beraya(a.k.a makan di embassy n kat bilik nas),nanti la baru ambil gmbr dr diorg...n nak upload jugak gmbr raya kat rumah(i wasnt there,huhu)...

pe2 pun,hepi slalu...:-p

jom puasa sunat hari arafah...

juz a quick entry here...ari isnin nanti kita akan sambut raya qurban...so, apa kata sempena bulan zulhijjah ni,kita ambil kesempatan untuk puasa hari 9 zulhijjah, moga2 usaha kita dirahmatiNya...

''Maksud Hadith : Kelebihan Puasa pada Hari Arafah (9 Zulhijjah) adalah diampunkan dosa setahun yang lalu dan setahun akan datang. (Hadith Riwayat Imam Muslim) Selamat Berpuasa~''

owh,td tgk program tv9 GADIS MELAYU, i'm not really a fan, i've only watched 2 episodes so far( skrg dah episode 8)...tp sbb ari2 ada kwn ckp bes jugak rncgn ni,jd tgk la satu episode,yg mn peserta2 ni ada program dgn ustzah nur bahiyyah,program rohani la...n yg part ni(yg kat bwh ni) rsnya nak share dgn kwan2,moga2 bole di ambik pengajaran,xsikit,bnyk pun jadik la...

http://www.tv9.com.my/Shows/Episodes.aspx?MasterID=221&ShowID=473&MenuID=2&TemplateID=1&SubMenuID=1&VideoID=12674&EpID=16665#anchorVid

harap2 Allah permudahkan utk puasa esok..takut jugak kalau2 asyik mngajak org ni,tp diri sdiri xterbuat...hari2 cuti ni,duduk kat bilik,cpt je rs lapar,tmbh2 ada mknn keliling bilik,huhu...sabar je la...

ok,selamat berpuasa semua....

n selamat hari raya aidil adha...:-)

help!!!i cant stop eating...:-(

ok,i admit i eat a lot all d time,huhu...it really doesnt matter if i feel happy,or depressed or wat so ever my feeling is at dat moment,i truely enjoy eating...n during class,i spend time thinking of wat d menu will b for dinner or if there's any new recipe for me to try :-)...yup mayb bcoz of my craving for food dat drives me to try new recipes...
but lately, i have been experiencing this urge to eat all kind of food, i dunno why(or mayb i know,i dunno) it's not that i'm that hungry, no...stimes i'm alredi full,but still i cant keep my hand of food...n while i was surfing d intenet looking for materials to complete my psm project, i found this article on eating disorder, n i really think i hav those symptoms,huhu...http://www.helpguide.org/mental/binge_eating_disorder.htm

Causes of binge eating and compulsive overeating

Most experts believe that it takes a combination of things to develop an eating disorder — including a person's genes, emotions, and experience.

Biological causes of binge eating disorder

Studies show that biological abnormalities contribute to binge eating. For example, the hypothalamus (the part of the brain that controls appetite) may not be sending correct messages about hunger and fullness. Researchers have also found a genetic mutation that appears to cause food addiction. Finally, there is evidence that low levels of the brain chemical serotonin play a role in compulsive eating.

Psychological causes of binge eating disorder

Depression and binge eating are strongly linked. According to the U.S. Department of Health and Human Services, up to half of all binge eaters are either depressed or have been before. There is further evidence that low self-esteem, loneliness, and body dissatisfaction are involved in compulsive overeating. People with binge eating disorder may also have trouble with impulse control and managing and expressing their feelings.

Social and cultural causes of binge eating disorder

Social pressure to be thin can add to the shame binge eaters feel and fuel their emotional eating. The way one is raised can also increase the risk for binge eating disorder. Some parents unwittingly set the stage for bingeing by using food to comfort, dismiss, or reward their children. Children who are exposed to frequent critical comments about their bodies and weight are also vulnerable. Another factor which has been linked to binge eating is sexual abuse in childhood.

these are several tips to overcome my excessive eating behaviour,huhu...n most of them i find hard to even to consider them,huhu,especially item no 2 and 4,hihi :-) n i'm not lying,i dun like to take brekfes even if i wake up early(which is very uncommon for me, i alwiz rush to class...)

Tips for Overcoming Binge Eating

• Eat breakfast. Skipping breakfast often leads to overeating later in the day, so start your day right with a healthy meal. Eating breakfast also jump starts your metabolism in the morning. Studies show that people who eat breakfast are thinner than those who don’t.
• Avoid temptation. You’re much more likely to overeat if you have junk food, desserts, and unhealthy snacks in the house. Remove the temptation by clearing your fridge and cupboards of your favorite binge foods.
• Stop dieting. The deprivation and hunger of strict dieting can trigger food cravings and the urge to overeat. Instead of dieting, focus on eating in moderation. Find nutritious foods that you enjoy and avoid labeling foods as “good” or “bad.”
• Exercise. Not only will exercise help you lost weight in a healthy way, but it also lifts depression, improves overall health, and reduces stress. The natural mood-boosting effects of exercise can help put a stop to emotional eating.
• Destress. Learn how to cope with stress in healthy ways that don’t involve food. For some helpful stress relief strategies, see Stress Management: How to Reduce, Prevent, and Cope with Stress.

i love food...wat to do?juz bear my life d way it is?d choice is mine, i juz dunno how to make a good choice...

more kedai halal in moscow...alhamdulillah...

salam...
today after epidemiology class, i went to ashan universitet with acap n nas...i was craving for some fatty food,huhu(i noe i shud ctrl myself,but i cant,it keeps playing in my mind how delicious those ice cream and pie would taste in my mouth,huhu)...so there i was,buying pirazhok n ice cream from ashan(sedap giler,totally worth it even though agak mahal la,hihi,triple choc tu...:-p)
n masa tgh2 mkn tu,acap la d one yg mention ada kedai halal baru bukak,huh,dah beli mcm2,so it wouldnt be right la kan utk beli lagik mknn,namanya ikut nafsu sgt tu...according to acap la,kedai tu baru bukak,n ada tanda halal lagi (they saw it, i didnt, coz my eyes arent that good for far sight...)...d time we passed by the cafe from far(about 5meter away i guess,hihi), some one from d cafe waved to us,but we juz buat dono je,sbb dah tlampau kenyang,it was impossible to fill anything anymore into our stomach...


but there are still other time, insyaAllah...i dunno about the menu or the range of prices there, it shud be like in the other cafe la kot...so,there i snapped a pic using my handphone(low quality je la,gmbr zoom penuh pulak tu,lg la x cantik)...if i'm not mistaken, the name is LIVAN HOUSE...so if ur thinking of finding new place to eat outside, feel free 2 pay a visit there...then u can tell me ur feedback,kalau bes,bole la pegi mkn sana,kalau x bes,malas la,huhu...
n alhamdulillah skrg ni dah bnyk org yg bukak kedai mknn halal...n mknn halal pun lebih sng nak jumpak kat moscow ni banding dgn zaman2 baru sampai sini dulu...harap2 nanti bukan setakat makanan halal je sng nak jumpak,tp lagi tnggi impian kalau disediakan tmpt utk bsembahyang...doa2kan la...:-)

keropok cheetos...sapa nak beli,bole ym...

ok,time for some ads,if that teacher in US(i read this on yahoo) can sell ads on his test paper,so,y not i do ads in my blog,hihi :-p...ok,this is not a permanent business,we(dayah n i) juz want 2 finish our cheetos stock(they were suppossed 2 b sold at sukom d other day,haha,i guess everyone there only wants healthy malaysian food,hihi,juz kidding...sooo,any1 feeling like eating junk food?ok,help me ere,since these cheetos been in my room,i hav been d regular customer,haha,n i'm d only customer for 1 week(tiha beli las week,k...thnx nway)...
tiada paksaan kat sini...but any1 yg ttiba rs mcm nak mkn cheetos,juz ym me (helianthus710),i'll try my best 2deliver--->only for those in spartiv,k,hihi...ok,n i'm sorry kalau ada ym yg x prasan tu,huhu...
daaa....

lamanya xmenulis...

salam smua(if any,hihi)
lamanya dah xmnulis,dah seminggu lebih rsnya...ni semua gara2 sbb bnyk sgt yg nak ditulis las wik,but it was a long week,n blame it on myself,i forgot 2pay phone bills,n end up kena potong,huhu,sowi rumets...4 ari xdak intenet,huhu,kitorg isi masa dgn masak2...
n d most important event for las wik was.....jeng3x...there're new member in my family...welcome 2 d world SARAH PUTERI ALYSSA...maksu xsabar nak tgk puteri maksu ni...:-p

btw,she was born on 24 nov 2008, a year n a month after her elder brother,adam was born...:-p
adam pulak,kena chicken pox ari2,tp alhamdulillah dah sihat,tp bdn still penuh parut lg la...n this is quite funny la,coz he is being jealous of his baby sister...takut sume org tumpu kat adik dia kot..my mak ckp,adam suka amek botol susu adik dia n mnum semua kat dia,isk3 adam ni...kebetulan dua2 siblings tu mnum susu soya(intolerance kot kat susu lembu),so mmg sakan la si adam ni mnhmntam susu adik dia...:-p but according to my psychiatry teacher,bnda tu normal je utk bdk2,utk rs mcm tu...dah la adam tu suka pegi pukul2 kaki adik dia,isk3...xpe2,pukul2 syg,insyaAllah dah bsr nnti akan jadik mesra,n saling mnyayangi,amin...
n i more thing dat i did las 1 n 1/2 week was doing a small business with dayah at sukom...thanx kpd pmbeli,maapkan apa2 yg tkurg ke tlebih ke, ye...alhamdulillah walaupun bnyk cbrn ari2(sampai hampir2 putus asa,thnx to all my fwens yg tlg,hargai sgt2 jasa baik korg),alhamdulillah at least balik modal la jugak...it was a really hard work that night,we didnt get any sleep at all,n rs2nya dah xnak dah mniaga kat sukom lps ni,huhu(dgr mcm cpt putus asa,kan?) i'll upload d photos later...blum amek dr org lain...

n mggu ni jugak selebret besday dayah (30/11) n besday kim(1/12)--->sowi kim xpegi masa diorg buat surprise party ari2...anyway,hepi besday my dearest fwenz...nnti baru p amek gmbr dr kamera org lain...